I’ve written before about being in a season of preparation and wanting to be intentional about learning and growth during this stage in my life.
I feel now that I’m beginning to move into a new season – a season in which I must step into what God has been preparing me to do. And I want to be just as intentional in this season as in the last. So, I’m considering the ways that God has taught and blessed me throughout this time, and how I can use what I’ve been given to serve Him.
I believe that God has blessed me in order to bless others. This is true financially, but also in other areas of my life. He’s given me stability, joy, spiritual gifts, and time and opportunities to serve. He’s placed specific callings on my heart and made me aware of needs that I can fill.
And in order to fill these needs, I am called to generosity. Not just generosity of my finances, or of my love and mercy, but generosity of self. I want to be generous with everything that I have and everything that I am.
In my last post I wrote about not being stingy with love or acting as if I’ll run out of it. This goes for my time and energy as well. I must be obedient with what I have and the ways God’s called me to serve, for the more of myself I give, the more of Himself He pours back into me. He will not fail to supply me with what I need to be faithful to His call.
So, in this coming season, I hope to be committed to generosity of self. To not simply be a consumer, receiving good things from God, from my church fellowship, from my relationships. Instead, I want to be filled by each these so that I can then pour into others.
So, I’ll be looking for the intersection of my God-given strengths and the needs of those around me. And I must no longer hesitate to pray for opportunities to serve; countless times my own fears and insecurities have caused me to shy away from this. So instead I will pray, in full assurance of God’s provision, and will be ready to obey when these opportunities arise.
Just as I wrote about “testing the limits” of God’s love, I want to “test the limits” of everything else that He provides.
This is not to say that I will ignore my own well-being and push myself to a place of burnout (“you can’t pour from an empty cup”, and all that), but that I will refuse to hold back out of fear of not being or having enough. When I hear God’s call to a particular person, action, or ministry, I will confidently and joyously give whatever it is He asks of me.
There’s a very short book by Bruce Wilkinson called The Prayer of Jabez. In it we read this concise and powerful prayer: “Oh, that You would bless me indeed, and enlarge my territory, that Your hand would be with me, and that You would keep me from evil, that I may not cause pain!”
This is one prayer I want to keep in my life moving forward. I want God to bless me – not in the selfish, earthly-focused ways that I often desire, but in the ways that align with God’s will. I want Him to bless me with whatever will equip me to become who He wants me to be in Him.
I want Him to “enlarge my territory”, to increase the opportunities around me in which I can serve Him. To make me aware of those in need and the ways that I can help.
I want Him to keep His hand with me, so that I never fall victim to the temptation to work in my own strength. I want to be entirely, utterly dependent on His power in my life.
And I want Him to keep me from evil, from the temptation of sin and the pain that it causes. To protect me from anything that threatens to separate me from God’s will for my life.
By trusting in God’s willingness to bless me, to provide opportunities to serve and grow, to do His work in me, and to guard me, I can move forward into this new season with confidence. I can live generously, knowing that all that I am is supplied and protected by the Lord.
Related Scripture
1 Chronicles 4:10
“Now Jabez called on the God of Israel, saying, ‘Oh, that You would bless me indeed, and enlarge my territory, that Your hand would be with me, and that You would keep me from evil, that I may not cause pain!” (NKJV)
2 Corinthians 9:7-8, 10
“Now this I say, he who sows sparingly will also reap sparingly, and he who sows bountifully with also reap bountifully. Each one must do just as he has purposed in his heart, not grudgingly or under compulsion, for God loves a cheerful giver. And God is able to make all grace abound to you, so that always having all sufficiency in everything, you may have an abundance for every good deed…Now He who supplies seed to the sower and bread for food will supply and multiply your seed for sowing and increase the harvest of your righteousness.”
1 John 3:17
“But whoever has the world’s goods, and sees his brother in need and closes his heart against him, how does the love of God abide in him?”
1 Timothy 6:17-19
“Instruct those who are rich in this present world not to be conceited or to fix their hope on the uncertainty of riches, but on God, who richly supplies us with all things to enjoy. Instruct them to do good, to be rich in good works, to be generous and ready to share, storing up for themselves the treasure of a good foundation for the future, so that they may take hold of that which is life indeed.”
Proverbs 11:25
“The generous man will be prosperous, and he who waters will himself be watered.”
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